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| I know that I am young.. but I know that I want a baby. Someone to call my own and that I know will never leave me, I'm not sure if it's my motherly qualities starting to kick in but I want someone that needs me as much as I need them and whom I can take care of. I want to teach my baby all that I know and to love unconditionally. All this world needs is love and I feel as if nobody really values my love towards them. I know that my baby will.
I am barely starting college in about a week, I have a part time job and nobody thinks that I can raise a baby with my boyfriend. They call me selfish and stupid but in reality all I want is to be able to give someone all my love! I am not selfish and I know that from the moment I get pregnant all the money I make will be towards my babies needs. I plan on working hard and not let anything hold me back. I am mature enough to realize the amount of work and sacrifices that I will have to make. I'm really not into that whole partying and going out thing I really just kinda like to relax and watch a movie or something on the weekends. Once in a while on special occasions I go out and maybe drink but I am more than willing to give that up to have my own child.
My boyfriend and I have always talked about a baby of our own and I'm 100% sure that right now is when I want to have it. When we hear comments like.. "no it'll mess up your life" or "it's gonna be a huge change into your teen years that you'll have to get used to" he cheers me up by saying that babies aren't something that mess up your life. They don't change your life in any negative way, they are definitely not the ones at fault for any problems that we are facing If anything they might make things to do a little tougher but not anything that we can't handle. A baby would be a great addition to the both of us and we can start our own little family. I am totally in love with my boyfriend and I know that we can do this, we both have huge hearts with so much love to give to eachother we want to have someone else to share it with.
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| well the title is pretty much self explanatory, I've had previous boyfriends and none have i ever felt the need to be jealous towards until now. My boyfriend and I have been together for about 8 months now and omg do i get mad at myself for being so jealous.. i met him through my friend he is her now husbands brother. She lives at their house since she is young..17.. and they cant afford much let alone a place on their own. I constantly feel the need to get mad at him because of the feeling that i get when they speak to eachother, its uncomfortable for me and i've tried talking to him about it and he laughs which pisses me off more. she is a very good friend and a nice person but for some reason i cant get comfortable with them talking to eachother and having to see eachother everyday. She sometimes tells me stories that he may come up in and i feel like she knows or tries to know more about him than i do. I get so angry and frustrated but I dont know what i can do or say to get this feeling to stop, I dont want them to know that i am feeling insecure and make me feel dumb or less than i am I mean it could be my ego speaking but I feel as if she would take advantage at which point I would end the friendship. He tells me that she is really nice and that if I want him to stop talking to her, to tell her to quit being so nice. That made me feel shitty.. I felt as if he were on her side and trying to make it seem as if I'm the problem. Another thing that pisses me off is the fact that my boyfriend always wants to be with them. Most of the time when hes with them its when I'm at work and they all 3 go do stuff together not only do I feel left out but I also feel as if he prefers them other than me. When I ask him to go to the beach he accepts my invitation and later I find out that they are coming along as well. I mean is it bad that I want to be alone with him at times? I hate being with his brother and wife because we never have any direction, they are always just driving around calling people to see if they wanna hang out or in some cases to see if they have some weed so that they can go smoke with them. Am I the one with the issues here or is this relationship really not going anywhere and kinda becoming a 3 people relationship?
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| Hello! 
I just signed up with xanga after so many months of pondering, I've visited this site
about a million times! I love the quotes, the blogs, the pictures. just about EVERYTHING!
Anyway, i am totatlly new to this and am so excited to get started but dont really know how to set up my page, i could use some help so if you have any advice that can help me with this please i beg you to tell me!
I want to learn from this experience, mostly learn on how to express myself without having to feel as if i am going to be judged on what i say or do. I want to be able to speak my mind with no regrets.
Ok so a little about myself.. I just graduated from highschool class of '09! whoo-hoo!! lol,
and i am starting college in about 2 weeks. I have the greatest boyfriend which i am so in love with, and i have about 8 months with him. Our relationship is great but like we all know can get a little hard at times, dissagreements, misunderstandings, jealousy, etc. you'll probably be hearing about him a lot. I work part time at the mall, my manager has become a really good friend of mine she listens very well and has been through much more than i have so gives me great advice. My parents and older brother are my support system. My life right now is going great i am truly blessed.
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| Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Xanga... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!"  | | |
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